By Victoria Lynn Hall
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”― Rainer Maria Rilke
It took me a long time to realize that needing to know everything was a trauma response. Growing up in an environment of uncertainty where I didn’t feel like I understood the rules or the ways of life; like I was always getting it wrong even when I felt like I was doing something right, kept me constantly looking for clues and searching for answers.
Eventually what I have learned is that there really are no ultimate answers or simple set of rules for everyone and that the people who act like there are, usually, are full of shit or just tired of searching.
People say that slogans and labels are for lazy people but I think they are, in many cases (not all), for tired people. For people who are exhausted by all the mixed messages of the media. For people who are weary from competing for security or success. For people who have run themselves ragged chasing dreams that were either kept out of reach or didn’t live up to their expectations when they did reach them. For people who wore out their heart and soul putting them into something or someone that they thought would change things only to be disappointed…
I understand tired. I get tired a lot and cranky as hell sometimes too.
But something happened to me when I finally let go of needing the answers; I realized that it was the questions that had been guiding me all along.
And it’s the questions that keep me going now.
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A Los Angeles native, Jesse Crall graduated from UCLA’s English Department before working as a copywriter, script reader and project manager for an engineering firm.
A self taught artist and creative entrepreneur, Victoria Lynn Hall lives in the Kansas City area with 4 spoiled cats. She believes in art and the magic of kindness.